my experience creating my header.

For the assignment, we’re supposed to create a header for our blogs, but I’ve already made one when I first made the blog. However, I think I’m going to experiment with Pixlr anyway and see if I can make a better one. I have Photoshop CS5 already installed on my laptop because of Tumblr. I used to make a lot of “custom text banners” for Tumblr users; they’d give me the font they wanted, hex color codes, gradients, patterns, strokes, outlines, etc., and I would make it for them. I made them for myself too, but then I changed up my blog style (I used to have an extremely girly makeup and clothes blog) and a banner just looked tacky.

Anyway, I found an image on Google search (which is the background of the header–the blue Hylian Crest). I’m actually trying to find it again but I’m having a hard time. If I manage to find it again, I’ll paste the link here. I wish I remembered what I searched… I just used my fancy text banner-making skills to write my blog title over it. That’s basically the extent of my Photoshop knowledge; I don’t know how to blend images or fix them or anything like that.

I’m definitely going to experiment with Pixlr though; I might even like using it more than Photoshop. If only my computer would load Google so I can search for images….sigh.

wow, it’s been a few days.

Well, more than a few. I’ve been quite busy. Trying to figure out my housing plans for next year and praying I get into the apartments. Also, there was Valentine’s Day, then work all day yesterday, and today I went to an exhibit featuring Avatar at the Liberty Science Center in Jersey City. It was pretty awesome. I’ll make a post about it soon. I should probably be doing the post I’m assigned for homework on this blog sometime before 11 tomorrow night…

so, this happened.

I had a dream that my blog got over 70,000 hits overnight and my post about not going in to work was somehow extremely popular and had over 1,000 comments on it. It was strange. This isn’t the weirdest dream I’ve had, though. For some reason I’m not capable of dreaming of anything normal, like about nice cuddles with my boyfriend or relaxing on a beach. No, most of my dreams involve destruction and fear and things that really just don’t make sense. If I could record my dreams, I would. Sometimes I remember them and can recall them by memory, sometimes I remember them right after I first wake up and then forget them later on in the day, and most of the time I just don’t remember them at all. If I could describe my dreams, I’d say they’re like tripping on acid. Not that I’ve ever done acid, but that’s what I imagine tripping on acid would be like.

Basically, just really really strange.

In other [normal] news, there’s a “Make Your Own Teddy Bear” event today at Rutgers in the Busch Student Center for $5 at 1PM, and I’m so there. I have class at 1:40 on Livingston though so I may have to skip. Or maybe I shouldn’t. But…teddy bears! Plus, I’m not making it for me. I’m making it for my boyfriend for Valentine’s Day. So I’m sacrificing for someone else. So there.

a penny for my thoughts.

Cleaning out my room entirely. I never threw any of my old junk out from when I was like 7. But it’s kind of funny to see exactly how much I’ve changed since then.

I’m 20 years old and I feel so old, seeing all these relics (yes, I’m calling my old junk relics) from my youth.

Haha, I sound like I belong in a Zelda game. Maybe.

due to the impending blizzard of doom.

I’m not going in to work at Dunkin Donuts today. I’ve only been working there for a week now, and it’s about a 20 minute drive away, but my parents have vehemently denied me trying to drive there. I’m kind of glad for that. My car has a tendency to slip and slide a lot on snowy/icy roads despite having four wheel drive. Also, we just got it repaired and back yesterday; the “check engine” light had come on last week and it was stalling, and it turned out one of the spark plugs wasn’t igniting and a piston wasn’t moving. I’m not quite so good with car talk so I have no idea what those things really are but driving it to the dealership felt like a death wish.

Anyway. I do feel kind of bad. I think most employees wouldn’t think twice about calling in and not coming in because of a blizzard, but I feel somewhat guilty. Maybe because I’m the newest employee. Or maybe it’s because I’m way too nice and I feel bad about everything even when I shouldn’t.

However, I don’t feel too bad anymore since I thought about how the risk of my manager getting annoyed was better than my possible death. I might have been too gruesome when I said this to my parents:

“I’m not about to end up with myself and the car wrapped around a guardrail waiting for the police to cut me out with the Jaws of Life to go and serve fucking coffee.”

They cringed at that. But, I think everyone gets my point.

faith (somewhat) restored in humanity.

Since I don’t feel like re-typing it, this is a copy/paste from my Facebook status:

We were talking about self esteem in my interpersonal communications class today, and the professor asked us if we think we project a confident image of ourselves to others. I found myself shaking my head and she asked me why. I admitted that I usually just put my headphones in and I don’t make eye contact with people because of my extreme insecurity. I also told her how I put makeup on and do my hair but it’s just a mask really to hide my insecurity. She then had the whole class clap for me because it was hard to say out loud, and then told me I’m a beautiful girl and the others in the class agreed. It honestly made me tear up a little. I’ve never ever had a positive perception of myself my entire life because of constant teasing. It felt good to know that maybe I really am beautiful and it’s time to stop hating myself. It’s going to be hard but I can try.

can i just say i hate mornings?

I’m sitting here waiting for class to start and all I can think about is sleep. Oh, glorious sleep. I can’t take naps during the day though. I’m not sure why, but it just feels weird. I feel like I’m wasting the day if I take a nap. I also can’t sleep in past 10:30 or I also feel like I’m wasting my day. However, when I’m on Tumblr for hours at a time, I don’t feel like that’s wasting the day.

if anyone cares.

I found out the name of the game I mentioned in my last post, the one where the main character had that little flying robot companion. It’s Jet Force Gemini.

I’m looking through a list of N64 games on Wikipedia and as soon as I saw the name it hit me. I’m also remembering playing games like Bomberman, Mario Party, Hey You Pikachu!, Pokemon Stadium, and basically every other game on the list.

If anyone else would like to take a look at it and reminisce, take a look here.

also, a (very long) word about gaming.

First off, Nintendo is my bitch. Well, maybe I shouldn’t put that so harshly. What I’m saying is, I’m an extreme Nintendo fangirl, and not just because of Legend of Zelda. Since the beginning of my memory, from what I can remember, my 2 brothers and I, one who is 24 now and one who is now 18, were almost always seated in front of the tv playing some sort of game when we weren’t at school, eating dinner, or sleeping. We basically owned every single Nintendo game system. We would battle against each other in games all the time; it was my favorite thing to do. For some reason though, the Nintendo 64 was the system that basically changed my whole life and became my obsession.

I can remember my younger brother and I playing that Rugrats Scavenger Hunt game against each other constantly. My older brother, not so much. He preferred the games like 007 for the N64 in which we could use guns to blast enemies, and each other of course, away. Super Mario Brothers was a huge favorite of ours. I remember Turok, Perfect Dark, Banjo Kazooie (and Banjo Twoie), Duke Nukem, and a bunch of other games I can’t even remember. Oh, but I loved this one game where you had the main character and traveled to different planets and had this teeny little flying robot companion that could also shoot. I wish I could remember its name. We still have a huge box with all our N64 games in it; one of these days I’ll sit down and sort through them and reminisce.

What started my Legend of Zelda obsession, though, was Ocarina of Time. My older brother was the first to play it, and I always sat back and watched. I was fascinated. I loved the story, I loved the characters, I loved the action. Watching it, and playing it, took me to another world.

Yet another series that I’m [almost] as obsessed with as I am with LoZ is Pokemon. Oh, glorious Pokemon. My brothers and I have played every single game made, and have possessed every Gameboy console ever created. We even moved on to the Nintendo DS, however I have yet to get a 3DS. I have to soon, though. The newest Pokemon games, Pokemon X and Y, is coming out this October and it’s for 3DS only. Also, I’ve been dying to play Ocarina of Time again for the 3DS. But, this is getting slightly off topic.

 

And so with the evolution of Nintendo consoles we too evolved with gaming, and began to acquire more than just Nintendo. We’ve owned all 3 playstations, Xbox, and of course now the Xbox 360. My brothers sort of strayed a little bit from the Nintendo path and moved on to games like Grand Theft Auto, Call of Duty, Halo, Rainbow 6…you get the picture. Now, all those games seem like fun, but I’m not really an FPS kind of girl. You can ask me a question about any Nintendo game, and I’ll probably be able to answer it, but ask me something about Xbox and I’m stumped. However, I’m actually really starting to get into Halo. My boyfriend’s been training me. I’m pretty bad with controls and being able to keep my screen level so I can actually shoot the Elites and not my own team members. Or shoot into the air.

I actually have yet to acquire the Wii U, but it was just released so I’m cutting myself some slack. I also need to buy that soon though, because there’s a LoZ Wind Waker HD remake coming out for it (not sure of the actual date) and I need it.

I could honestly write forever about gaming but then this blog post would never end, and I’m sure that if you’re still reading this by this point you’re probably wondering when I’m going to shut up. I’ll definitely be posting a lot about my Halo journey. I’m also really getting into Assassin’s Creed and Mass Effect so expect posts about those too…I honestly don’t know why I didn’t start getting into these sooner. Nintendo just owns my life.

I guess I’m Nintendo’s bitch, not the other way around 🙂

this glass house we call home.

Ever since RED released their newest album yesterday, Release the Panic, I’ve been listening to it nonstop. I tend to do that. Usually when one of my favorite bands releases a new song or a new album I’ll be stuck listening to it for weeks at a time. And then, when I stop doing that, I’ll re-obsess over it a few months later which is kind of weird. I don’t really know why that is, but eh, what the hell.

I’m currently awaiting the bus to my next class, which is Communication Theory. I live on College Ave and it’s in Scott Hall yet I’m much too lazy to walk there, so I just take the EE or the F. Lazy college girl problems.

Also, another thing I’ve noticed about myself…every day I wake up and I’m like “I’m actually going to wear my cute clothes today and look good.” And then not a minute later I throw on sweats and a hoodie and call it a good outfit.

I tend to talk a lot about random things.